I never make new year resolutions. Mostly because being manic depressive, I have a lot of ups and downs... and when I made resolutions in the past, it was usually during an "up" motivated time... but when the down times came I was unable to follow through and would then beat myself up because of it.
Instead of resolutions, I have faith and hope that life will continue to improve because of taking care of myself in all capacities, continually striving toward compassion and love for everyone ~ a life-long practice. Forgiveness to myself when I fail and forgiveness to others and remembrance that we are all connected in spirit.
This year was pretty big in terms of personal break-throughs for me. I'd like to count those blessings, acknowledge the lessons and use that knowledge in the upcoming time. The dark, terrible moments were the catalysts to work diligently for a change and so for those I am grateful.
1. Hit the lowest low I've had in terms depression/anxiety and finally took productive steps to get help. While still a struggle, there are noticeably more great days :) Realizing that these productive steps need to continue and be consistent; do the work necessary to make the changes.
2. Quit drinking alcohol in August. Was tough at first but I think of it less all the time. For the sake of mental/physical/financial/everything it just made sense to quit. The migraines alone - oy.
3. Hiatus from dating after spring... Learning how to make better decisions and be logical for a change. I'm proud of the courage it takes to go it alone and my ability to go through walks of life alone when necessary. (Hey if it's good enough for Emerson...)
4. Being more responsible for my money - not spending beyond my means and paying off credit. Things have gotten slowly better and I'm encouraged. (Thanks dad for your help in the budgeting habits :)
5. Cultivating friendships and relationships with family. This is really important to me and I had to do some damage control from my previous down times, issues, cancellations, etc. It's almost impossible to be a good daughter/sister/friend when filled with fear, anxiety, shame and all those garbage emotions. But in the midst of that, there blossomed some unexpected friendships and deepened some existing relationships that I treasure and am so grateful for. Thank you to those who stuck with me and helped me get out of myself into a better life.
(and I need to throw in my gratitude for getting into the Mile Hi Choir - 120 friendly folks to sing with are also becoming a new family :)
If you happen to be the one reading this ;-) please drop some comments on your lessons... come in, and know me better man!
Wishing you every joy ~ peace on earth ~ goodwill to all
Instead of resolutions, I have faith and hope that life will continue to improve because of taking care of myself in all capacities, continually striving toward compassion and love for everyone ~ a life-long practice. Forgiveness to myself when I fail and forgiveness to others and remembrance that we are all connected in spirit.
"If you believe you can, you probably can. If you believe you won't, you most assuredly won't. Belief is the ignition switch that gets you off the launching pad."
Denis Waitley
This year was pretty big in terms of personal break-throughs for me. I'd like to count those blessings, acknowledge the lessons and use that knowledge in the upcoming time. The dark, terrible moments were the catalysts to work diligently for a change and so for those I am grateful.
1. Hit the lowest low I've had in terms depression/anxiety and finally took productive steps to get help. While still a struggle, there are noticeably more great days :) Realizing that these productive steps need to continue and be consistent; do the work necessary to make the changes.
2. Quit drinking alcohol in August. Was tough at first but I think of it less all the time. For the sake of mental/physical/financial/everything it just made sense to quit. The migraines alone - oy.
3. Hiatus from dating after spring... Learning how to make better decisions and be logical for a change. I'm proud of the courage it takes to go it alone and my ability to go through walks of life alone when necessary. (Hey if it's good enough for Emerson...)
4. Being more responsible for my money - not spending beyond my means and paying off credit. Things have gotten slowly better and I'm encouraged. (Thanks dad for your help in the budgeting habits :)
5. Cultivating friendships and relationships with family. This is really important to me and I had to do some damage control from my previous down times, issues, cancellations, etc. It's almost impossible to be a good daughter/sister/friend when filled with fear, anxiety, shame and all those garbage emotions. But in the midst of that, there blossomed some unexpected friendships and deepened some existing relationships that I treasure and am so grateful for. Thank you to those who stuck with me and helped me get out of myself into a better life.
(and I need to throw in my gratitude for getting into the Mile Hi Choir - 120 friendly folks to sing with are also becoming a new family :)
If you happen to be the one reading this ;-) please drop some comments on your lessons... come in, and know me better man!
Wishing you every joy ~ peace on earth ~ goodwill to all
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